Argh

It's so frustrating when potentially good guy friends screw things up when they start asking you out, when you just aren't attracted to them that way.

If I remember correctly, it's the second time it's happened.

Here's what happened now:

A classmate of mine added me on Facebook. I wasn't so busy then yet, so I would be online and he would start a chat. He invited me to a party around Christmas time, and that was how he got my number, so he could follow up with me.

It seemed innocent enough. I was just making friends. I wasn't able to go to that party. I didn't really think much about it, I just didn't know enough people in the party. He seemed like a decent enough friend until he started asking me out, and saying he was going to send me flowers for Valentine's Day. Who says it in advance anyway?

Now I have this bad habit of sometimes not replying to text messages. And with the way he was being persistent, I wasn't replying to several of his text messages. But he did send me flowers and a cake for Valentine's. I wasn't exactly moved by it. (I must have written a post about this) It was an obvious sign I wasn't into him.

But he asked me out fro breakfast the weekend after. Which was convenient for him, since our class together was at nine in the morning, and I couldn't come up with any excuse to say no to him. So I had breakfast with him and it was boring. No sparks.

After that he started asking me out again. And I didn't reply to his messages. Until I finally said no. It was hard and I felt bad. He apologized after that and didn't text for the next few days. Good thing a few days before our next class he texted again, and I was grateful. Maybe things would go back to the way it was.

But seeing him again in class, it felt awkward. I did my part in giving him a cupcake I promised a few weeks before. I tried, I really did. And I even said by to him after class.

Then now he texts that I'm being so cold. And it's unfair. I'm not being cold. I'm only human, I can't act as if everything's fine and dandy. I don't know if I should reply this time. At least to defend myself. Or not to bother.