obsession?

Some people I know have that "could-have-been" ex-boyfriend. Not just any of the ex-boyfriends. It's like who among the exes was the closest to happily ever after. Was just short of something.

But that doesn't apply to me. So instead of having that "could-have-been" ex, I have the "could-have-been" crush. Haha. Labo. But if people ask me what's my type of guy, I think of him. *kilig*

He's tall. He's cute. He's close to his sister and to his mom (without being a mama's boy).

Sometimes I'm kicking myself for missing my chance with him. But don't mind me. It happened more than ten years ago. My memory's fuzzy, wondering why I didn't even pay much attention to him when he was already calling me. But I'm sure our personalities didn't jive well. Why else would I have ignored him when I was the first one who was interested in him? Maybe's he's just a pretty face.

And maybe now that I haven't really liked anyone for some time now (years?) I'm trying to dig up old flames (haha!) and try to survive a bit more with those memories. I'm pretty sure I've magnified my whole crush on him.

But then again...It didn't help that I saw his photo in some print ad (I could already start singing Magasin by Eraserheads). It didn't help that I saw him in the mall after oh so many years (but dared not show myself to him). And it isn't helping that his latest FB status is "Cupid's got me running solo...again?! Damn!>=/"

Damn talaga. And asa pa ako. So what if he's single now. It's not like he's gonna come knocking on my door. He must have filed me as a girl who stupidly left him hanging those years ago. (But then again, he didn't try hard enough.)

I need someone REAL. I need to let go of this crazy delusion.